Post by mysteria on May 22, 2007 22:54:23 GMT -5
Jan 3rd, 2007
Dear Diary,
I have to admit, I was surprised when my mom pressed this book into my hands, telling me if I can't express myself out loud, I should do it on paper. Why? I have absolutely NO problem expressing myself.
Anyway, I guess I'll start 'expressing myself', with a list of my friends.
Kelly- My bestest best friend. Kelly likes to read and write, like me, but totally hates her name. I however WUV my name ^^
Drake- My other best friend. He has a Final Fantasy obsession.
Wow, long list, right?
You know, it makes me sad sometimes to think that I only have two friends...
Jan 5th, 2007
I decided not to write 'Dear Diary', anymore. It makes me feel like a little kid.
So, my day went normal today.
I woke up late AGAIN, nearly missed my bus, and when I finally made it to school, I slipped on some ice and fell on my butt, hard. God, I think I broke my tail bone.
To make matters worse, Drake tried to help me up and not only slipped on the ice himself, but also tripped over me, landing flat on his face in the grass. As you would imagine, everyone in the ninth grade was laughing at us. It was quite embarrassing.
Jan 8th, 2007
I'm supposed to 'express my feelings' in this journal, right?
Okay. Today I am feeling MAD!
Do you know what I go through at school? It's fracking Hell! I mean, seriously! Let's all just pick on Jessica because she likes to sing! Let's pick on Jessica because she has no life! I HATE THEM ALL! For all I care a BOMB could go off in that school and I'd laugh!!!
So, some loser, probably Kyle, tripped me as I walked past the front row, on my way to my desk. And then Tora was all, oh my god, you are such a klutz, greasy. God I hate that name.
Jan 9th, 2007 11:08 AM
Oh my god, Kelly just passed me the funniest note ever.
Drake is a freak
I know that, stupid
No, seriously. I told him he was gay and he not only hit me with a purse, but it was a final fantasy purse!
OMG! Are you serious?
Oh crap, my teacher just took the note away! And read it to the class!
Jan 9th, 2007 10:30 PM
My life is over.
I mean it. O-V-E-R.
One of my best- only, friends hates me, and I am the laughing stock of the entire school.
Why, you ask?
Well, after Mr. Islander read my note to THE WHOLE FRACKING CLASS, Drake, who's in that class turned like, beet red, and just glared at me, like, How could you do this? Seriously. No one knows about his F.F. obsession.
Then, the retarded teacher saw me writing in this stupid book, and read it out loud! MY DIARY! OUT LOUD!!!
I really, really, REALLY can't go to school tomorrow.
I think I'll fake the flu.
Jan 10, 2007
So, faking the flu didn't work. And I was sent to the Counselor, who wasn't to happy with me. Apparently, she was 'disturbed' (her word, not mine) about the whole bomb thing I wrote in my diary.
All I can say is that I'm sure a lot of people would laugh.
Drake wont talk to me and Kelly thinks this whole thing is a frickin joke. My life is honestly ruined. Every time Tora saw me she starts laughing. And on top of calling me greasy, she now calls me no life Jessica. I really hate her. The counselor wants to see me every week for one hour after school. Year right! As if I really want to spend my time "expressing" my self to that over weight 'professional psychiatrist.' *cough*flea ball*cough*. I don't even express my self to my own parents, let alone some nut job in dire need of an upper lip and eyebrow wax. Whatever.
Jan 12th, 2007
So, remember how the counselor said I have to see her everyday after school? Well, I totally skipped yesterday's appointment and she just about threw a fit at school today. She was all, "I expect you to be there tonight Jessica. Or I will be talking to your parents." W/e. Like I give a rip.
But anyway, I went today, and we spent the whole time talking about my 'personal goals'.
Jan 15th, 2007
I just got an IM from Kelly. God, she is such an ass hole. I copied it down so I can 'reflect' on it later. That's what the counselor said I should be using MY diary for. Copying stuff down and thinking about it.
Anyway: GypsyPrincess: Hello?
GypsyPrincess:I know you're there Jesse!
GypsyPrincess:Talk to meeeee!
HardCorePixie:WHAT???
GypsyPrincess:wtf is your problem? You haven't talked to me ALL DAY! Is the frickin' counselor brain washing you or something?
And then I signed out.
Jan 16th, 2007
So, I was sitting in the counselor's office this afternoon, you know, just waiting to go home, right? Anyway, so I was sitting there and she asked what I had found to reflect on. Like it was my fracking homework or something! So I flipped to the page where I had Kelly's IM written down, and shoved it at her. "So how does this make you feel?" She had asked me. How was I supposed to know? "How does it make YOU feel?" I wanted to scream back.
Drake still isn't talking to me.
And he has a girlfriend.
Jan 18th, 2007 12:30
I never realized how much pain I would be in if Drake was gone.
I mean it. I'm siting at the lunch table I would normally share with Kelly and him, by myself, watching Kristi and Drake make googoo eyes at each other, and every time I look up it feels like a knife is going through my chest. Kelly is sitting with Tora, chatting away, like it's perfectly normal to betray your best friend.
Do I like Drake? Is that what I'm feeling? I dunno. Maybe Its just raging teen hormones that will go away soon. Or maybe I miss the friendship.
Jan 23rd, 2007
I can't eat. I can't sleep. Drake's face keeps floating around in my mind. Everyone is laughing at him behind his back now, but he doesn't care.
He only has time for Kristi.
Not for me, the only girl who had ever talked to him before Kristi came along.
Not for me, the girl who was used to picking up the pieces whenever he fell apart.
No. Not for me.
Jan 30, 2007
I've missed several counseling sessions, I can hardly eat, I can't sleep, and I am getting behind in school.
But I don't care.
Kristi and Drake broke up.
I cannot believe how my heart flew when I heard the news. I've never been happier in my life.
But he still wont talk to me.
Dear Diary,
I have to admit, I was surprised when my mom pressed this book into my hands, telling me if I can't express myself out loud, I should do it on paper. Why? I have absolutely NO problem expressing myself.
Anyway, I guess I'll start 'expressing myself', with a list of my friends.
Kelly- My bestest best friend. Kelly likes to read and write, like me, but totally hates her name. I however WUV my name ^^
Drake- My other best friend. He has a Final Fantasy obsession.
Wow, long list, right?
You know, it makes me sad sometimes to think that I only have two friends...
Jan 5th, 2007
I decided not to write 'Dear Diary', anymore. It makes me feel like a little kid.
So, my day went normal today.
I woke up late AGAIN, nearly missed my bus, and when I finally made it to school, I slipped on some ice and fell on my butt, hard. God, I think I broke my tail bone.
To make matters worse, Drake tried to help me up and not only slipped on the ice himself, but also tripped over me, landing flat on his face in the grass. As you would imagine, everyone in the ninth grade was laughing at us. It was quite embarrassing.
Jan 8th, 2007
I'm supposed to 'express my feelings' in this journal, right?
Okay. Today I am feeling MAD!
Do you know what I go through at school? It's fracking Hell! I mean, seriously! Let's all just pick on Jessica because she likes to sing! Let's pick on Jessica because she has no life! I HATE THEM ALL! For all I care a BOMB could go off in that school and I'd laugh!!!
So, some loser, probably Kyle, tripped me as I walked past the front row, on my way to my desk. And then Tora was all, oh my god, you are such a klutz, greasy. God I hate that name.
Jan 9th, 2007 11:08 AM
Oh my god, Kelly just passed me the funniest note ever.
Drake is a freak
I know that, stupid
No, seriously. I told him he was gay and he not only hit me with a purse, but it was a final fantasy purse!
OMG! Are you serious?
Oh crap, my teacher just took the note away! And read it to the class!
Jan 9th, 2007 10:30 PM
My life is over.
I mean it. O-V-E-R.
One of my best- only, friends hates me, and I am the laughing stock of the entire school.
Why, you ask?
Well, after Mr. Islander read my note to THE WHOLE FRACKING CLASS, Drake, who's in that class turned like, beet red, and just glared at me, like, How could you do this? Seriously. No one knows about his F.F. obsession.
Then, the retarded teacher saw me writing in this stupid book, and read it out loud! MY DIARY! OUT LOUD!!!
I really, really, REALLY can't go to school tomorrow.
I think I'll fake the flu.
Jan 10, 2007
So, faking the flu didn't work. And I was sent to the Counselor, who wasn't to happy with me. Apparently, she was 'disturbed' (her word, not mine) about the whole bomb thing I wrote in my diary.
All I can say is that I'm sure a lot of people would laugh.
Drake wont talk to me and Kelly thinks this whole thing is a frickin joke. My life is honestly ruined. Every time Tora saw me she starts laughing. And on top of calling me greasy, she now calls me no life Jessica. I really hate her. The counselor wants to see me every week for one hour after school. Year right! As if I really want to spend my time "expressing" my self to that over weight 'professional psychiatrist.' *cough*flea ball*cough*. I don't even express my self to my own parents, let alone some nut job in dire need of an upper lip and eyebrow wax. Whatever.
Jan 12th, 2007
So, remember how the counselor said I have to see her everyday after school? Well, I totally skipped yesterday's appointment and she just about threw a fit at school today. She was all, "I expect you to be there tonight Jessica. Or I will be talking to your parents." W/e. Like I give a rip.
But anyway, I went today, and we spent the whole time talking about my 'personal goals'.
Jan 15th, 2007
I just got an IM from Kelly. God, she is such an ass hole. I copied it down so I can 'reflect' on it later. That's what the counselor said I should be using MY diary for. Copying stuff down and thinking about it.
Anyway: GypsyPrincess: Hello?
GypsyPrincess:I know you're there Jesse!
GypsyPrincess:Talk to meeeee!
HardCorePixie:WHAT???
GypsyPrincess:wtf is your problem? You haven't talked to me ALL DAY! Is the frickin' counselor brain washing you or something?
And then I signed out.
Jan 16th, 2007
So, I was sitting in the counselor's office this afternoon, you know, just waiting to go home, right? Anyway, so I was sitting there and she asked what I had found to reflect on. Like it was my fracking homework or something! So I flipped to the page where I had Kelly's IM written down, and shoved it at her. "So how does this make you feel?" She had asked me. How was I supposed to know? "How does it make YOU feel?" I wanted to scream back.
Drake still isn't talking to me.
And he has a girlfriend.
Jan 18th, 2007 12:30
I never realized how much pain I would be in if Drake was gone.
I mean it. I'm siting at the lunch table I would normally share with Kelly and him, by myself, watching Kristi and Drake make googoo eyes at each other, and every time I look up it feels like a knife is going through my chest. Kelly is sitting with Tora, chatting away, like it's perfectly normal to betray your best friend.
Do I like Drake? Is that what I'm feeling? I dunno. Maybe Its just raging teen hormones that will go away soon. Or maybe I miss the friendship.
Jan 23rd, 2007
I can't eat. I can't sleep. Drake's face keeps floating around in my mind. Everyone is laughing at him behind his back now, but he doesn't care.
He only has time for Kristi.
Not for me, the only girl who had ever talked to him before Kristi came along.
Not for me, the girl who was used to picking up the pieces whenever he fell apart.
No. Not for me.
Jan 30, 2007
I've missed several counseling sessions, I can hardly eat, I can't sleep, and I am getting behind in school.
But I don't care.
Kristi and Drake broke up.
I cannot believe how my heart flew when I heard the news. I've never been happier in my life.
But he still wont talk to me.